One Day Less

One Day Less

Dusted paintings
Sombre images of yesterday
These memories, chased by winds and clouds
Take me to consider, all left undone

Can you recall our last sunset
A day close to eternity...

Hours rushing to end
Uttering promises never made
Afar the wind will take them
Astray and strange

Shadows rush to blend
Years are are made of sand
I'll watch your hair grow
While I hold your hand

Maybe each day should be our last
And each hour devours the past
Bring us, a feast of gods
Before the closing choir echos

Can you recall our last entwine
A moment close to divinity...

I crave, for the evening...
In a garment of stars everlasting
Fragile radiance...
If the dawn never rises

I crave, for a new beginning
And write this history over...
To sculpt a flawless tale
In my imaginary world

One day less, I have...
To feel your skin
One day less, I have...
To see your smile
One day less, I have...
To taste your lips
One day less, I have...
To see your eyes

One day less, I have...
To see you fade
One day less...
One dream less I have today...



This photo, like many others was an early morning dream, trapped in my mind, haunting me for years. I could not find the perfect tree ( tall enough for view of the chain, round in shape (branches and leaves) like an apple tree, in the middle of a field with short grass, a smidgen of a hill behind the tree and in the distance a corner/90º angle of forest, yes I know seems weird but could not just pick any old tree or field or what was suggested by many others, it is hard to relay meaning, importance or whatever it is that goes on inside me that makes me almost break down when not accomplished perfectly as in my mind… more like heart and soul, it destroys me and eats me up. It took a while to find this “perfect” tree… which this surely is not but was as good as it was going to get. I would look daily while at work in a tall vehicle and on any ride or adventure I would go on. When this field and tree that would just have to do was found, I had my heart set on it while waiting for snow to melt and greenery to come back yet still looking for another location that would be better or perfect. One morning I had the perfect weather, wet, misty and foggy and a police officer rained on my parade. Another morning I went in the dark waiting for daylight to come but I was not aware it would take forever and had to leave before the time was right for something else. Although I had tried every setting on the camera to make the lighting perfect… it was except for I could not see what I was focusing on so it blurred and I was too far away. I finally did get my shot, it is nothing near what I wanted and I try not to cry. If I had chosen the shot where you see entire tree (he is too tall and I would have had to photoshop him round and he would look silly, trust me I tried) and all the work I did with body you could not see, I have the wrong color hair and photoshoping that makes a huge mess and does not get the color I wanted. The chain was not long enough for the correct pose, there is just too much to state and explain and well it won’t matter really to anyone but me I am sure but although here is another one off my list they truly never really are off the list when they are not “right” it might make me cry because of the meaning, I’m not quite sure, those words, they as well as the music and the voice are haunting me over and over every waking moment as well as the moment I “may” be drifting into “sleep” the tears are rolling as I type this and I have no clue why I allow my thoughts to come to my fingertips right now but perhaps dreams are to be left where they lay except for the fact that mine come to life so vividly so I may as well…

mainly and most importantly, it was done with/by the one it was created for, my true love, for those words haunt me and mean the world to me because of him. i fear the loss of him/his love, in any sense and every minuscule moment spent with him i appreciate and cherish because there is not enough time on this earth, not enough years, even if i had 600 years with him it would not be enough, it pains me, just the thought of this all coming to an end, i cannot, i just cannot deal *tears* at this very moment as any other... One Day Less... and it absolutely kills me

The others that were in close choice

this endeavor is so difficult to deal with, please excuse me