the year was 1981

February was the month and my mother believed she was about to receive her ultimate Valentine. 48 hours later a gift finally arrived. she gave birth to what she thought would be a son but once announced of her princess she panicked in disbelief and fear. the man she chose to love, my father, reassured her it was perhaps best. February 16th 1981 Melissa Mae LeBlanc was born. she has been alive for 3 decades now. i am 30 years old and 2 days. today's date is February 18th 2011 and winter has perhaps left us. sadness occurs within me this winter when my beautiful glowing bright land of Narnia leaves me. the past 2 days we have felt the heat of 60ºF. i want my beautiful white inspiration to return, atleast for now. i am not quite done. atleast give me the rest of February, after that, permission to melt. my dear loving Joshua made every effort to make my birthday celebration wonderful. it was filled with many different feelings and emotions. mostly spent in thought. good to reflect within. new days to come? never too late? old ways to return? old and new alike can be good. return to me oh daring fully charged heart. be loved again, pain all removed. no more tears.